Sunday, December 25, 2011

Merry Christmas from..

The depths of my bed. Yeah, Merry Christmas to all.

Perhaps, this might be the way i will be spending christmas in many more years to come. Preferably without all the sneezing and coughing.

Dear world, there are a lot of good things and bad things (very very bad things) happening outside there. In comparison, i am in really fortunate place with a shelter and warm blanket and food to fill up my stomach. But why, don't i just feel warm and fuzzy inside?

You and i both know the answer.

If christmas wishes do come true, you and i both know what i would wish for this year, previous years and every other single year.

Merry christmas to all.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

The same old broken story

Well, here we go again.
I fell back into the old pattern. Even when I tried so hard to prevent it. After being in denial for all this while, finallly admitting, only to be crushed all over again.
I guess another piece of my heart is broken again today, and i'm not sure it'll ever heal back. It's not like I haven't expected it to end this way, but it still hurt.
I might not be tearing on the outside, but inside i'm bleeding profusely.
It doesn't matter though. All I have to do is pull on my happy mask again as usual and no one will notice anything wrong. Those who do will just pretend they don't anyway.
After all, i'm living up to my happy name....